This is something I have yet to admit and it’s something that I’m ashamed of, but I feel like I need to say it somewhere. 

I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’ve been eating, and I order online, and it used to be a cinch, now I feel like I barely fit into my clothes and it’s scary. I just want to shrink, and there’s not other way other than a diet change and some exercise.

Here’s the thing… I’m terrified about how I’m going to look after. What if even then I’m not happy with myself? What if I still feel like I’m ugly? I’ve been the self-proclaimed “juicy” girl for so long that I don’t know what to do, how I’m going to identify myself, if it’ll make me happy… I’m so conflicted and it’s scary and horrible and I feel like the ugliest girl with so much to give, and I have the most amazing boyfriend and I feel like he deserves the most amazing girl, and I know I’m that for him, but I want to love myself so he knows that he has someone as amazing as he thinks. I’m really lost and I need help.

There is nothing more chilling than hearing the streets involved, knowing that you walk down those streets to go to work, to go to school… Some sick bastard is attacking my home. There were babies, elderly, families, couples, friends….
“Boston is under attack.”
My prayers go out to the victims and witnesses and Boston community.
This is terrifying.